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zana16They critiqued my story in Short Story class last night, and it was surprisingly painless (until the professor said he had a problem with my entire premise, but whatever). Apparently I do some things better than I'd realized, which was cool. Everyone (except the professor) really liked the dragons, although most of them saw them as something sexual Darcy (main character) wasn't completely acknowledging--which is interesting, and I'll have to go back and see if maybe they are, and it's something I wasn't acknowledging, since the story is about Darcy having trouble acknowledging reality and sexuality and emotions, and some of her struggle is a magnification of my own.
Right. So: I'm really not sure why Smith College let me be a student here. I'm in my last semester; you'd think I'd be on top of things by now. Sunday night, I kept falling asleep over my English reading, so I decided to check my email and go to sleep... it was 9:30 at night. Why did I click the link? Why did I start reading a fanfic that was thirty frelling chapters long??? I went to bed at 5:30 in the morning, without finishing my English reading. In fact, I slept through English. Wah.
Am now collectively 400 pages behind in my reading for four classes. Am now officially screwed. I know I can graduate without doing much of the reading, but I'm taking these classes not because I have to but because I have genuine interest in the subject matter (okay, so the politico-economics of Southeast Asian development is required, but the point still holds).
Although while on the subject of academics, I would just like to say one thing: Advanced Calc rocks. Callahan ruliez. I took Linear Algebra my first semester at Smith, and I never understood what an eigenvector was. I had to make the decision to learn how to compute one and never understand it, which was very frustrating since I'm used to understanding math. Now, in my last semster at Smith, I finally understand. And it's so simple. Not only do I understand what an eigenvector is, I now understand the lecture last semester about linear transformations and relativity; the speed of light is the only constant axis. *boggle* The secrets of the universe are making sense to me. Something must be wrong. Prepare for the freezing-over of hell and the Apocalypse. God I love math. Well, sometimes.
Right. So: I'm really not sure why Smith College let me be a student here. I'm in my last semester; you'd think I'd be on top of things by now. Sunday night, I kept falling asleep over my English reading, so I decided to check my email and go to sleep... it was 9:30 at night. Why did I click the link? Why did I start reading a fanfic that was thirty frelling chapters long??? I went to bed at 5:30 in the morning, without finishing my English reading. In fact, I slept through English. Wah.
Am now collectively 400 pages behind in my reading for four classes. Am now officially screwed. I know I can graduate without doing much of the reading, but I'm taking these classes not because I have to but because I have genuine interest in the subject matter (okay, so the politico-economics of Southeast Asian development is required, but the point still holds).
Although while on the subject of academics, I would just like to say one thing: Advanced Calc rocks. Callahan ruliez. I took Linear Algebra my first semester at Smith, and I never understood what an eigenvector was. I had to make the decision to learn how to compute one and never understand it, which was very frustrating since I'm used to understanding math. Now, in my last semster at Smith, I finally understand. And it's so simple. Not only do I understand what an eigenvector is, I now understand the lecture last semester about linear transformations and relativity; the speed of light is the only constant axis. *boggle* The secrets of the universe are making sense to me. Something must be wrong. Prepare for the freezing-over of hell and the Apocalypse. God I love math. Well, sometimes.
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Date: 2004-02-10 08:15 pm (UTC):) that's so exciting. Perhaps there is hope for me yet!
-Emily
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Date: 2004-02-10 09:29 pm (UTC)And damn you for understanding math; it sounds exciting, but I fear I'll never know what you're talking about. Maybe in my next life I'll get to be a theoretical physiciast. Fingers crossed.
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Date: 2004-02-10 09:41 pm (UTC)