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Oct. 14th, 2003 06:30 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
zana16Am having an excruciatingly bad day. Wah.
Origins of Totalitarianism is very good but very dense. I wish she's didn't have a key concept every other sentence so that I could skim.
Goddamnit why doesn't this school have Frosted MiniWheats anymore???? I need thinking food to munch on.
I'm not sure if I was always this bad at concentrating while studying or if I just never had to study things that require this much concentration. I wish Ritalin were over-the-counter. I wish my brother were still on it so I could steal some of his. Oh, don't look at me like that. I take a small pile of prescription drugs just to be able to get up in the morning and function like a sane human being; what's another one going to hurt? *sigh* Except for that pesky vow I made to myself to stop fucking around with drugs, prescription or otherwise. Breaking promises to other people bothers me so much that I only do so in extreme cases, but breaking promises to myself--I have to live with me. I have to forgive me. I have to deal with the repercussions.
Should stop procrastinating now.
Origins of Totalitarianism is very good but very dense. I wish she's didn't have a key concept every other sentence so that I could skim.
Goddamnit why doesn't this school have Frosted MiniWheats anymore???? I need thinking food to munch on.
I'm not sure if I was always this bad at concentrating while studying or if I just never had to study things that require this much concentration. I wish Ritalin were over-the-counter. I wish my brother were still on it so I could steal some of his. Oh, don't look at me like that. I take a small pile of prescription drugs just to be able to get up in the morning and function like a sane human being; what's another one going to hurt? *sigh* Except for that pesky vow I made to myself to stop fucking around with drugs, prescription or otherwise. Breaking promises to other people bothers me so much that I only do so in extreme cases, but breaking promises to myself--I have to live with me. I have to forgive me. I have to deal with the repercussions.
Should stop procrastinating now.