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[zana16]

cshushki said yesterday of the guy I'm crushing on, "Sounds like he needs to be needed. You could try being more needy."

Turned me right off, that did. I think I may need to reevaluate this crush. And like I told her, I'd probably lose him to the first needier person who came along.

This is not to say that I'm not needy. I am. It's just I regard that more as a personal failing, and not something I'd get into a relationship to remedy. And also I would never trust anyone else with my neediness. Trust issues up the wazoo, that's me. But also, like Alanis Morisette says, I don't want to be your other half, I believe that one and one make two. It took me a long time to learn that I could take care of myself and I don't know that I'd be able to give that up; it's a hard-won knowledge but it's a good knowledge.

Perhaps I should not be posting from work on my slightly fucked-up inner dialogue.